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~Basics~
Name: emily
Birthday: 9/25
Height: 5'3
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: browm
Length: to my ears. kinda short. and quite flippy.
Hobbies: mallets, taking pictures, shopping
Allergies: no
Pets: dog-gwen/scarppy cat-toe jam
Siblings: sister-becca brother-josh
Any Personality Disorders: uh.. no?
~Run of the Mill~
Favorite Color(s): black, green...
Favorite Scent: lilacs, adidas moves
Favorite Food: fruit snacks, pizza, mozzerella sticks
Favorite Show: Most extreme elimination
Best Kind of Music: eer, screamo.
Worst Kind of Music: country. but rap is a tie.
Favorite Time of Day: afternoon. 4ishishish
Favorite Subject in School: band, wellness, spanish
Favorite Holiday: i dont like holidays much
Best Year of your Life: er, seventh grade to the end of that summer
Favorite Band/Singer/Group: way to hard to chose. i currently love love love as i lay dying.
Pet Peeves: peoples hair EVERYWHERE. alchoholics. people who say one phrase alot. "yo dude, i got this wicked awesome system dude, its the bomb dude" thats just annoying
Best Friend: um. i cant realy say... ive got lots of close ones.
Worst Enemy: er, i hate having enemies. i dont realy think i have a specific one right now.
Worst Subject: Math
Job: ICS! yay. no
~Random or Not~
Socks you are wearing: no socks
Last thing you said out loud: yeah ill do it later.. bye
The weather yesterday: sunny. hot.
Last Person to Piss you off: my mom. definitly
Last time you cried: er... no idea
Color of the Sky: light purple polka dotted sticky grey
Favorite Drugs: NONE [way to go for jess on that one. i agree]
Homework: math. who knows if ill do it...
Favorite Shoes: sauconys. def.
Favorite Outfit: i like the little octopus shirt alot right now. and the pants dont matter. as long as its LEVIS
Best Website Ever: livejournal. yeah you heard me DJ. or photobucket
Ever Wish things were different: sometimes
Biggest Regret: i hate having regrets. so no regrets.
Do something for Someone else: i need to get those cds done. bad.
Someone Make you nervous?: jen, i dont wanna be late for jazz night
Anyone You're friends with out of Charity?: ur, no. i think...
Last thing you paid for yourself: pizza last night. UGH
Favorite Song: oh wow too many. i realy like the happy endiong song right now by PTW though.
Favorite Animal: gross
10th line of 10th entry: Romantic or Horndog:: romantic
Danger or Safety: Danger
Books or Movies: movies
Word of the Day: fuck. its always the word of the day
Funniest thing of the Day: cait and sam. they are funny.
~Opinon of...~
Suicide: its pathetic. if we knew you were going to waste a life, then we wouldnt have brought you into the world and put our own hearts in to you. never resort to suicide, get help.
Abortion PRO FUCKING CHOICE. if you knew your child wasnt going to be supported, it wasnt going to be brought into this world as a joy, but a hate, if you knew that you would just set your child in a foster home to rot waway untill its 18 and then know it will have absolutely nothing to do with its life, because it has no where to start, would you realy want it to have a life like that.
Drugs or Alcohol: straight fucking edge.
Preppies: my friends. but some of them are realy cool, once ya know them
Eating Disorders: gross.
Politics: ridiculous
Travel: love love
Music: its my life. that simple.
Sports: gross. i hate sports.
Math: is too confusing for me. id rather sleep through the three years of required math
Scars: some are realy cool. like i have one near my eye shaped like a lemmon, i was chasing smash and fell on my face.
Cutting: dangerous. scary. i dont, but people realy close to me do. i hate it.
Violence: increase the peace.
Anything on your Mind: thinking about suicide. my friend made me watch a face of death thing where a guy commits suicide, ive nkown people who have committed suicde. my stomache turns every time i think about their end.
~Name 4 Best Friends~
~ patrick
~ sammie
~ cait
~ ash
~Name One good Quality for Each~
~ open minded, intelligent
~ hilarious
~ trustworthy.
~ always there. no matter what.
~Name One bad Quality for Each~
~ to whipped. and far from me. :-/
~ has horrible moods sometimes
~ incredibly strongly oppinionated
~ shy
~Best Memory of Each~
~ europe. 5 months.
~ i cant even say, way to many
~ still, cant say
~ PEE and ants.
Last Peson you Had a fight with: Mom
Why: because she was being annoying
Regret it: no
Explain: she does stupid things sometimes. and it bugs me. just like she yells at me when i do stupid things.
~Childhood~
Favorite Toy as a kid: barbies
Thumb Sucker or Pacifier kid: none
Blankie: i still have it!
Best Memory: camping trips. it was always the happiest times we had.
Best Friend as a Kid: ash
Miss it?: a little. but things right now are awesome
~Romance~
Boyfriend/Girlfriend?: Yes
Describe the Perfect Guy/Girl: tall, skinny, dark hair/eyes. romantic, flirty, fun, sweet, understanding, openminded.
Boxers, briefs, or thongs?: Boxers. roxer my soxers
Personality or Looks: both. i like that.
Blue eyes or Green: hmm
Brown or Blonde: Brown
Slow Dance or Provocative: uh, i dont dance WITH people i like. hahah
Last Date: last weekend
Anniversary: march 17th
Miss anyone?: yeah
Got a Crush?: maybe ;-)
Antagonist or Protagonist: protagonist
Tropical Paradise or Suburbia: suburbia
Dangerous or Sweetheart: both
Short or Long Hair: long
Last time you talked to your love: last night. :-/ i miss him so
~Current~
How're you feeling: anxious, excited
What'd you do today: woke up with ash, wished her a happy birthday. fell asleep. woke up with cass sam and cait. hung out. played cards and ate. will attend jazz fest later with jen
Buy Anything: No
Friends nearby: jam is licking my rug.
Whats the time: 437 PM
Anything you should be doing: washing the dishes for ma dukes.
Shower Lately: this morning
Talk to your sweetheart today: nope :-/
Your Fears: my kitty is sick, and old. :-/
Plans for Tomorrow: going shopping with my love. he wants a pair of levis just like mine
~Future~
College (Yes/No): yes
Where: hmm...
Hopes: to succeed musicly.
Job?: something in music
How many Kids: 000000000
Pets?: i want cats. two. norma and jean.
Moving anywhere?: providizzy, or new york. i like the city. but if i move to providizzy, i want tobe in the nice part.
Dropping out?: no. never.
What Kind of Car?: 59' impala. *rings out panties*
What Color: green
Your Opinion of the Person you took this from: i like her... and miss her.
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THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 | big huge trucks
02 | silence
03 | the dark
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FOUR PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01 | jen
02 | caroline
03 | andrew
04 | ash
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FIVE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | emo boys
02 | my true friends
03 | music
04 | shows
05 | fashion
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THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 fake people
02 bitches and hoes
03 polo shirts
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THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | bitches and hoes
02 | why health food stores always have the best pizza
03 | why people think dandelions are ugly. i picked one for andrew yesterday.
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THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | green polka dotted scarf
02 | a week old mint milk sjake from DQ
03 | my camera
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THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | folding my legs
02 | licking my lips
03 | listening to the tv in the other room
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THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | visit every country in all of europe.
02 | paticipate in a benefit, maybe something for cancer or something
03 | own a night club, or acoustic cafe type thing
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THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | type pretty fast when im aggrivated.
02 | love
03 | play instruments
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THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | im often spacing out, and i always miss the important points of conversations
02 | im a huge spaz
03 | increase the peace. fighting is for fags unless you have a real reason.
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THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 | play guitar
02 | cook food
03 | sleep at night.
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THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | The Opposite of December CD- poison the well
02 | Blinside- king of the closet
03 | please mr grave digger
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THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
01 | metallica
02 | george bush
03 | self help tapes
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THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | fuck
02 | ugh
03 | im hungry
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THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | taco bell
02 | pizza pockets
03 | garden salad with ittalian dressing
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THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
01| how to fly a plane
02| how to play guitar
03| how to build a computer
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THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | cherry pepsi
02 | milk
03 | cranberry apple juice
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THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 | eurekas castle
02 | salute your shorts
03 | alice in wonderland [the tv show]
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meh vacation is almost over. gay. it went by so fast. because of work. also gay. jens gonna try to get me a job at rondevous. which would be awesome. because then id cut down to like three days at ICS. and just do whatever other time i have at rondevous. rondevous would be fun. get to look all cute and roller skate to people serving their ice cream. haha. and ICS, i get to life heavy plants, get scratched up by junipers and get soaking wet and sick beause of the rain. awesome, huh. blah. oh well, it pays alot. i get my first paycheck friday. it will be gone in the first 3 days. its a guarentee. whatev...
lets see, what did i do this vacation?
-went to the mall with jen and eli. and met mike there too
-went to be a groupie at band practice with andrew bobby joe andrew nick lee sammie and cait
-watched a movie with andrew bobby and jen
-had nick eli cait joe bobby and andrew over for a fire
-hung with andrew 6 times.
-saw 13 going on 30 with sister and brittney and sam [sisters BFs cousins]
-saw Man on Fire with andrew and his family
and oh yeah i worked all the time. amazing huh? yeah. well, 7 weeks of school. weeeeee. and then summer. i will work every day if i get hired at rondevous.
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[25 Apr 2004|08:53am] |
GAY, REALY FUCKING GAY.
my sister talked to her tatoo artist. he also does piercings. he said he would pierce my lip as long as i had permission from my parents. my mom said maybe. dad said no. and then mom said if i got dad to say yes then shed say yes and i could get it done. GAY wicked fucking gay. ive wanted this done for about two years. yeah so it turned into this huge fight about how they give me so many freedoms. and then i got yelled at for guaging my ears without asking them. i didnt think i realy had to ask them. and even if they said no i would have done it anyway. ugh, faggots.
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[24 Apr 2004|12:26am] |
Basics
Name: emily
age: 14
birthdate: 9-25
birthplace: woonsocket
hair color: dark brown
shoe size: 6. itty bitty/
eye color: brown
piercings?: ears. double zero. seeing about my lip tomorrow
tatoos: none
If you dont have one or already do and want another: yeah, i want a white one. it kinda looks like a scar, but its still cool
Music
radio: i hate FM/ AM
Favorite cd you own: currently, You Come Before You
worst cd: The Julianna Theory
best song ever: Meeting Again For the First Time
worst song ever: theres alot of bad music. probly that song by the "emo-rap" guy Eamon
Favorite radio station: if i realy must, F&X
favorite band: PTW, FATA, FFAF
singer?: clauds right now.
i name the band-you say a lyric or part of any of there songs-if you know!
xtina aguilera or w/e: there by my side, always down for the ride
Blink 182: i thought id never die alone, i laugh the loudest. whod of known?
box car racer: i wish i was mad
marilyn manson: tainted love, ooohooh
dashboard confessional: so get out your fake IDs and fake romances. its cool to fake romances
MxPx: sympathy is my middle name
Sugarcult: lost in you and i cant find myself again
MCS: mcs...?
britney spears: youre toxic, im slipping under
Backstreet boys: ..hmm...
50 cent: damn homie, what the hell happen to you?
gob: uh...
The Used: top of the world, sitting here wishing. the things ive become... something is missing
limp bizkit: i did it all for the nookie, come one, the nookie
michelle branch: can you tell me, so i can finally see where you go when youre gone
Anti Flag: OI!
The beatles: we all live in a yellow submarine
Avril Lavigne: he was a sk8er boi, she said to him l8er boi
Simple Plan: im a dick, addicted to you
Good charlotte: gay gay gay
Your favorite
Food: grilled chicken sandwhich from BK
drink: snapple. tea.
website: journal
word: love
color: black
tv show: OTH, mad tv, MXC
tv station: comedy central
movie: the labyrinth, requiem for a dream, dead alive
song: Remembering Never- Blue
band: PTW, FATA, RN, Sikth
store: charlotte russe.
mall: emerald
brand of clothes: levis. its all i wear for pants.
shoe brand: sauconys
perfume: adidas moves
makeup: concealer.
lipgloss: Vo2
shoes: sauconys
socks: i dont know. i payed like 3 bucks for a pack of five at AJ Wright
jeans: levis. duh
shirt: my brown sweatshirt with the tears in it. ive got it on right now.
cd: you come before you.... opposite of december
radio station: F&X
friend: all
Friends
which one have you known the longest: ash
met recently: ethan.........
Which of your friends is the
craziest: hm, sammie. <3
flirtyish: cait
boyish: cait. hahahaha
dumbest: cass
smartest: caroline
blondish: ash ma-bash... crash
funniest: all of them are super funny
stupidest: Jorge
funnest to be w/: all of them... ash jen sammie cait sk andrew bobby. love 'em all
boringest: none of my friends are boring
Most ghetto: SK haha
prettiest: sammie
hottest: oooh, andrew
weirdest: cait
Which one..
Pepsi coke: pepsi
dvd-t.v: dvd
cd radio: cd
long sleeve short sleeve: long sleeve
cold warm: warm
summer winter: summer
pool lake: pool
pool jacuzzi: jacuzzi
grass sand: grass
hawaii alaska: hawaii
lipgloss lipstick: chapstick
cell phone-wall phone thing: cell
purse wallet: wallet
boy girl: boy
white black: black
pink or orange: pink
coins-bills.: bills
closet dresser: closet
In the past 24 hours have you..
had a slurpee!: no!
drank coffee: yeah
drank?: no
smoked: no
listened to music: yea
watched t.v: yea
talked on the phone: yup
went to school: no =)
took a picture: yeah, in work.
bought anything: a Mochakoola at the movies
hated someone: hm, nope
loved someone: yep, i love lots of someones
missed someone: yes
went swimming: no
played in the snow: no
wanted to die: mmhmm
drove anywhere: yeah
sprayed perfume: yeah
rented a movie: no. but returned Lab. and DA
bought a cd: looked at them. but didnt purchase because im poor
took a shower: yes
im not sure if i did this yet but who is the last person you...
kisssed: andrew
hugged: becca
loved: lots of people
missed: andaroo
slept w/: uh...
talked to: beccaboo
hated: hm, no one realy
sent a IM to: ash
called: mom
called you: abdrew
came to your house: abdrew
last persons house you went to: caits
have you ever
went tubing: yeah
talked on the phone for more than 5 hours: yes
took an hour long shower: yeah
took a 2 hour long shower: no
took a shower til there was no hot water left: yes.
took a bath for more than an hour: yeah
slept for more than 12 hours: yep
stayed up for more than 24 hours: yea
listened to the same cd for more than 2 hours: yeah. tchaikovsky.
watched t.v. for more than 4 hours: never. eeek
stayed online for more than 5 hours straight: yeah haha
went skinny dipping: nope
drove for more than 15 hours: nope
sang a solo: cant sing a right note for the life of me
felt hated: daily
names
charlotte or marisol?: marisol
joe or bob?: bob
adam or tom?: tom
mary or jane?: jane
jacqueline or savannah?: savannah
sports
baseball or football?: eek
football or basketball?: eek
basketball or soccer?: soccer
basketball or baseball?: eek
football or soccer?: soccer
soccer or baseball?: soccer
snowboarding or skateboarding?: skateboarding
running or jogging?: running
food n drinks
brocolli or cauliflower?: brocolli
cantaloupe or grapefruit?: both
oranges or apples?: oranges
orange juice or apple juice?: orange juice
cookies or brocolli?: brocolli
hot dogs or hamburgers?: eek
root beer or pepsi?: pepsi
cream soda or rootbeer?: cream soda
ginger ale or sparking water?: jinja ayel
cake or pie?: pie
girl scout cookies or oreos?: girlscout cookies
school
math or science?: i hate both. but math i guess
spanish, german, or french?: spanish
lunch or recess?: recess
ela or social studies?: social studies
ela or math?: ela...
algebra or art?: art
gym or music?: music
fork or spoon or spork? (dont ask me how this relates to food.): fork
pen or pencil?: pen
lots of schoolwork or lots of homework?: schoolwork
no homework or no schoolwork?: no homework
young teacher or old teach?: young
music
rock or pop?: rock
rap or metal?: metal
rap or pop?: neither
metal or rock?: metal
rock or pop?: rock
pop or punk?: punk
emo or ska?: emo
jazz or blues?: blues
linkin park or limp bizkit?: gross
good charlotte or story of the year?: soty
ska or r&b?: ska
green day or jimmy eat world?: jew
blink182 or eminem?: blink182
personalities
talkative or shy?: talkative
boring or fun?: fun
sad or depressive?: sad
happy or perky?: happy
hyper or calm?: kind of hyper, not too calm
loud or quiet?: not too loud
moody or always boring?: moody
loves sports or hates sports?: hates
quiet in class or included in discussions?: included
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[22 Apr 2004|07:09pm] |
im waiting for andrew to come over. it seems like its been 345975 years since ive seen him. hmph....
work today was pretty good actually. better than it is most days. i wouldnt mind it so much if i didnt have to walk around aimlessly looking for my mom. i hate dealing with the customers though. i dont work for the home depot how the hell am i supposed to know where everything is. and some lady got all bitchy even after i tried to help her the best i could. ugh, i hate shit bag people. whatever...
tomorrow is that last day. and then i dont work for a few months. wahoooo. haha. well, ill work anydays we get off school. but those arent too often.
last night i went to caits house. but i was in such a shitty mood. i just moped around. talked to a few people. and then left. i hope everyone knew that it wasnt them i was upset about... i wasnt realy upset about anyone. i was just being a shit head. so i came home and listened to music and it got better. this is enough for now... see ya later...
there was something about how good you looked under the water
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[21 Apr 2004|10:39pm] |
last night was good. i had cait joey eli nick bobby jen and andrew over for a little fire. it was fun. kinda weird between me and andrew but i think everything is sorted out now. i hope it is atleast. jen slept over. we fell asleep so fast. and we woke up. and ate. and then we went to the mall with andrew. i talked to mike the whole way to the mall. we are going to mary someday. i asked him when he wanted to and he said "i dont want to talk about it" and i said "okay, but as soon as you get out of school, we will get married, okay?" ahaha and i got no answer. the mall was kinda fun. haha, we made andrew go into all the realy girly stores. i kinda felt bad for a while. i was realy hoping we could hang out after the mall but he couldnt. i missed him. and it put me in such a shitty mood. i slept for a bit. and then went to caits. i miss everyone of them so much and i wish i got to see them more. but what can i do? nothing.
i dont want to work tomorrow. or ever for that matter, but i can wait for my first check. 280 dollars all for me. well, about 100 will go for future cell phone bills but still. haha
i cant wait to spend it all either. im gonna get some 7/16 plugs. and a new pair of sauconys. and some hoodies. and belts. and fun stuff. hahaand CDs. oooh! and my ticket to Atreyu. wow, its gonna go so fast. haha
wow, i just remembered how shitty i am feeling. ive been on the verge of tears all afternoon. fucking fuck, i hate being like this. someone needs to shoot me.
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thanks guys. and PK, you better be in on this
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[19 Apr 2004|11:07pm] |
yeah so, not so many entries for those in the public. anything i have to say seriously has been private. mainly because this is my journal and i dont need to be criticised for what im thinking. got a problem with that then tell me. and ill give quite the best fucking reason i can think of. privacy.
so yeasterday i went to Poison the Well/ Thursday [they also played with Enginedown and Spitalfield.] with corey bev. derek and nikki. it was cool. i was kinda lonely though. the first two bands were alright. but poison the well [the whole reason i went] was amazing. just like tyhe last time i saw them. the third song they played,. Meeting Again For The First Time, is my favorite. and i almost dropped to the floor dead because it was so incredible. Thursday was realy good too. but i got pissed and missed alot of Thursday.
the reason why i was pissed; the pits wouldnt open. i couldnt breath. my breasts were being squished. and some 250 pound asshole crowd punched me three times. i have a huge disgusting bruise on my elbow. and many others. haha, thursdays light show was very flashy. i thought i was gonna have a seizure. haha. it was so flashy that one second a kid would just be swinging and the next his face was an inch from your face. it was all cool though.
im wicked tired. work today sucked. and i got myself very confused. whatever.
love
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FIRSTS:
First best friend: Ashley
First car: dont have one. never have.
First real kiss: 7th grade
First break-up: 6th grade
First screen name: mnm2525
First self purchased album: Bush- sixteen stone.
First funeral: my aunts last summer
First pet: ive had pets for as long as i remember. but Rascal was my first that was all my own. and she had a lot of boogers. just like me.
First piercing/tattoo: pierced ears when i was nin
First credit card: none
First true love: uh, jeff. i guess.
First enemy: kelly dexter. she didnt like it so much when i would chase her around the playground when her leg was broken.
First crush: jeff
First big trip: i went to europe when i was 12
First music you remember hearing in your house: jethro tull or jefferson airplain
LASTS
Last cigarette: dont smoke. never have.
Last car ride: mom brought me to get a ticket to the show tonight
Last kiss: andrew last night
Last good cry: ethan. but it wasnt so good. it was just long.
Last library book checked out: no idea
Last movie seen: the Labyrinth
Last beverage drank: milk
Last food consumed: choclates
Last crush: meh
Last phone call: andrew
Last time showered: this morning
Last shoes worn: got my sauconys on. im geared up for the show tonight. haha
Last cd played: The Opposite of December- poison the well
Last item bought: ticket to the show tonight
Last annoyance: um, myself.
Last disappointment: my brother became a muscle head today. officaly.
Last time wanting to die: last night.
Last time scolded: all fucking day yesterday
Last shirt worn: a realy old AE sheer shirt that i cut the sleeves off of and made it cooler. haha
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jesus fucking christ. last night was amazing. brazil opened. he did the funny thing again. where he looks all cautious and turns around hahaha. and then Funeral For A Friend played. they were very good, again. Juno was amazing, i love them. i cant wait for their headline, if they have one in the states. haha theyre so brittish. yeah and then rainer maria came on. they suck. i dont like them. but who cares. sparta came on and we brought all the kids into the crowd. hahaha, it was so funny seeing kyle joe and jen in there. haha. sparta was amazing. coheed and cambria came on. they are fucking incredible. i danced alot to them. hit some kids. kicked a few. ugh, i get elboed in the neck so hard and my hoodie cut into it. aha. whatev. the night was very good. i cant wait to see coheed and cambria again. we got home around 2 and i slept right away. it was cool. woke at 530 and got ready with my jen. we walked over to ash's to catch the bus with her.
school was boring. band i didnt nothing. spanish, i slept. history, i slept. wellness, we listened to cosby albums. and then the rest of the day was assembly. the boys played. [andyroo, ffej, zacksimous, tom and kevin] they were good.
came home. sat around. left saw bobby. came home. slept. called andyroo. went to the mall with the girls. met sam and andrew there. i got the Ima Robot cd. and im listening to it right now. its so good. it makes me smile.
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[16 Apr 2004|05:15pm] |
"please. just please dont attach yourself to me. and ill do the same. as much as i want to hate you, i know i cant... id never want you to hate me. PLEASE. please dont hate me. youre turning grey.. i cant bare to look
can we hold hands. but tell me you will let go when i tell you to. and please dont squeeze too hard. i can feel your palm against mine, cold and dry. i want it to stay this way... a flash of grey and its gone
please look away i cant stand it any longer. those eyes.... your hand clutching mine. let go, please let go..."
DAMMIT
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[15 Apr 2004|07:09am] |
meh, its so early. but im ready for school early. im eating crispix. that cereal is pretty fucking good. so school today will suck because i dont have band and i have all wicked shitty classes rght in a row. like physics for block. that guy is a dick, we got into another fight yesterday. im not saying anything in has class, unless i am forced. he needs to be shot. yeah so school will suck but there is a show tonight that a ton of cool peiople are going to. andrew joe jen kyle bobby kaitlyn jeff jeremy might go. and a ton of other cool kids too. haha mike is going and its funny because hes such a mtel head. and there are so many little emo kids going to it. ahaha
i got a hot new cell phone yesterday, compliments of my sister. becky named it Viola for me. i thnik it might have something to do with thw fact that par of it is purple// who knows with that girl. i love her. haaha
jen is coming over off the bus today. shes a cool kid. tonight wil be her first show. im gonna make sure to tell kyle and joe to watch out for her when me and andrew arent around. jens jen. and shes such a freaking tiny kid hah, so i think she might want someone to watch after her. yeah so its gonna be a fun night....
coheed and cambria, funeral for a friend, sparta, rainer maria and brazil
haha, ive already seen all those ands, except for sparta. which upsets me because i realy like sparta and i wish they were at the last show...
eh, ill probly update tomorrow or something.
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[14 Apr 2004|04:35pm] |
I'd love to drown you in a sea of your own blood
kisses to me and watch you choke on it
how many songs do you wish to be written about you?
this isn't the first and it wont be the last baby
how well you fake a smile and some tears to match
you wanted everything and more
everything is ruined
when i have you again
your're mouth gets sewn up forever
i'll never let you go
Mrs. hardcore fashion show
kiss your drama queen days good-bye
those days are so long gone and this day so are you
this is the last night your neck is not serrated
this charade is getting older than suicide attempts
say you love me
say you love me and write it in your blood
and you know what
say it again
se how fast your chest collapses
we are all the lucky ones
and i'll decorate myself with your insides
and i can wear your face as a mask
dont cry
you just got what you wanted
how cool you look now
how much better would you look with your heart lodged
inside the brand new cut in your throat
your body is as blue as your hair
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[13 Apr 2004|09:32pm] |
there are spots of sunshine on my floor. i can see the color fading away. id like to absorb that sun, could you be my shield if it gets too strong? i dont think i could take all that alone. hold me and never let go. i can see the sun in your eyes today, dont ever let if fade away...
sometimes i need more than the sun spots on my carpet to help me breath
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alright, so YESTERDAY. school was meh. i kinda forget what happened, if anything happened. but after school, i hung around a bit. andrew came over, awesome as usual. such a sweet kid. and we hung, listened to some music. bobby came over. and we got ice cream. so good. i got oreo. and they got the rasberry with caramell. i was jealous. yeah then we went back to my house and chatted a bit.bobby stole my hawt sweater. but kellie made him take it off later on. ugh. i hope he wears it to school. i like it. it is black and has a green, purple and pink V on it. its cool. i got lots of cool CDs from the love. Poison the Well, Ephel Duath, Remembering Never, DEP, Sikth and Glassjaw. im excited. haha.. such good tunes. yesterday was a very fun day :-)... haha, i was sitting with andrew and my mom called for me and i got up to get the door and i fell on my face. it was funny.
today today was very good. my lovely sister came and got me out of school at 12. for no reason at all haha. we hung out and i showed her how to do some stuff on her new computer. and we went out to Papa Ginos. i got some hawt kicks from marshals. i tried onlittle kids shoes too, i fit in a size 4 for little girls. haha. and i almost bought a pair of them. they were like neon blue and pink. but i got the other pair instead. and then we went and got food for her boyfriend. and went back to her appt. and then we went out again. to sears. she got all sorts of crap haha. and then we went over to radioshack to pick out a cell phone. i picked one out and i think im gettnig it tomorrow. im also shopping with my mom tomorrow. new jeans finally. ive been missing the levis outlet store lately. im excited to go back. haha
i dont feel like writing anymore. so im out. later.
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[11 Apr 2004|12:25am] |
it feels good to be back where i belong.
so last night i went with the love to the willis house. and my favorite willis was there! sammie <3. i was so happy when she told me she was staying there, and cait was coming and jen and eli. had a good talk with those girls...
the movie was good. Kill Bill. fucking amazing actually. i just like the overall effect of it. the blood. and the scene with the mad ball. ahaha, and me and andrew put so much together because alot of the stuff from the movie was in our Winter Percusion show. im definitly buying it when it comes out on DVD on tuesday. and im making beccaboo take me to see V2 on friday. haha. i see a new obsession coming.
so then andrew left and i joined the girls. i love them to death. it feels like things might work out with us after all. eli left. but me jen sammie and cait stayed up untill 5 AM just talking. it was awesome. i havent had that in a long long time. fell asleep a ilttle after five, woke up at 11. hung around, shopped a bit. and then went back to sammies. had people over. it was fun. her house always has crazy amounts of people over. but its so big you cant realy tell there are so many people. SWandCM will be my string sisters forever. *licks a dinasaur*... this weekend made me realize how much ive missed out on. i wish i hadnt, but i guess i needed to figure out how awesome they are.
im so fucking tired. i fell asleep on the way home from best buy today. i have to get up at six tomorrow. so i can go and pretend to be christian with my family. and of all christian holidays they force me to celebrate, EASTER. i absolutely hate easter. ugh. and my grandmother fucking annoys me. i love her, but she always compares me to my sister. "why dont you wear your hair like beckys? why dont you dress like becky? why dont you eat like becky?" and im like "hey gram... NO" ugh. so annoying. and then all my cousins are like... 34092735 years younger than me. i hate all the rediculous holidays those christians come up with.
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[08 Apr 2004|10:13pm] |
woo, today was flip-floppy. good bad good bad good bad.. so on and so forth.
woke up, got ready, went to the bus stop, went to school. talked to people, homeroom, spanish, wellness [so fun!], english [BLAGH], math [booo], band, physcics.
physics sucked. we ghad a sub because johnson was taking inventory. and then i went downstairs got some crap. and then back up for detention. that guy is a jerk off. first he lectures me and tells me how much of a bitch to him. and then hes all like trying to get on my good side. hey, no. so now i get an hour detention for everytime i give him "attitude". uuh, GAY.
yeah so i got out of detention. went to the band room ofcourse. eli and candote were there! we hung. i ate food :-). we walked around saw some cool trackers. and then candote brought me home.
i slept. sister woke me up, i was pissed. and then i got ready for the banquet. got there and colorguard had already started being all giggley. i was like "oh no mom, theyve already started. we realy dont need to go in. we can just say there was a terrible accident or something"... meh, the banquet was good, but jared didnt go. i was kinda mad about that. mergh, hes a senior. whatev, he probably had a reason. mike got new swords for dustin and jared and we all signed them. it was cool. food was meh, but whatev. it was at christophers... right accross the street from...yeah...
so after the banquet i went to andyroos house. hes very awesome. tomorrow were hanging out! :-D and maybe stopping by the movie night at mandas house. which means i get to see sammie!! [hopefully] should be a good time.
im very tired, i have work tomorrow. ill eat and go to bed.
"i passed your part of town today, somehow it never phased me.. i looked up at your front door and remembered why i never wanted to go back..."
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